Mean menieres and cute clothes

So, I tried to do a little work out tonight.  

And it didn't work out!  

Two reasons: 1. I'm out of shape (obviously) and 2. my head couldn't seem to handle it.  I think I would've tried to push through more if it weren't for the second one.  

My balance gets so so bad sometimes.  But it's something no one can see, which for me, can make it harder to deal with.

I had a vertigo episode while I was up bearing my testimony at church yesterday.  I was talking all animatedly and then I started spinning.  I felt myself slump a little.  I hesitated but then was able to continue talking as it ran it's course.  Lately these episodes have been short ones so that is a major blessing.  It was gone before I finished.  I didn't panic because I was pretty sure it would be quick.  I've also gotten so much better at handling the discomfort.  I need to praise the Lord for that and be grateful for the good things.  But the thing is I think no one had any idea it happened.  In a way that's good.  But it more so just makes me feel more embarrassed.  About my sudden weird behavior, or about how much help I seem to need for no apparent reason.  

But church was great.  Most of the testimonies were about gratitude for what people in the ward have done for each other and the support that is there, mine included.  I don't know how I would've gotten through the last months of pregnancy without those wonderful women who came to my aid, bringing meals, driving us places etc....

I have a testimony of the Gospel, but I also have a testimony of the Church, the organization of it, the purpose it serves, the friendship it brings.  I'm so grateful to be a part of it, to partake of the blessings and then to have the chance to pay it forward in whatever small way I can.  

On another note- 

I love little boy things!  

It's so fun to have both the boy and girl experience of parenting....starting with THE CLOTHES!  We have two tiny newborn church onesies for our little man and a few little bowties and he is rocking them.  THIS is truly a part of parenthood that fulfills childhood dreams- dressing my REAL DOLLS BABIES.  I squeal with delight right along with my girls at his cuteness.

this is the cutest boy in the world

my two handsome guys!

those eyes looking up at me every day

and the girls could not be left out of course.  (ps. andrew usually does their hair on sundays lately and i'm so proud.  oh also, hannah is definitely wearing audrey's dress)

And on top of wearing cute clothes, our little Mister Charming here has been treating us to a few more smiles lately!

Again- impossible to stay sad when I have all of this.