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We are 2 weeks away from our due date and I am going crazy. I am so excited one minute and so nervous the next. I go from feeling overwhelmed by the million things I have to do before she comes to wondering how in the world I'm going to pass the time every day till she finally gets here. Names are still up in the air. That is making me think too much...like hoping we don't choose the wrong name. I know there isn't really a "wrong"name, I just really want to be in love with the name and not feel like I'm settling. Maybe that's silly, I dunno, but that's how this pregnant girl's mind is working right now.
All I want to eat is sweets. Not candy really (which I think my family will be surprised about) but baked goods and pudding and chocolaty, peanut buttery, creamy things. I wish I could eat these things for all three meals. Thank goodness for Audrey being around so that I at least try to make us both eat things other than desserts. Although, we still have cheese danishes and greek yogurt for breakfast lately. With raspberries and strawberries sometimes...so that's good. We also eat a lot of other fruit. That's basically our diet till dinner- fruit, desserts, granola bars, and maybe some pasta for lunch if theres no dinner leftovers in the fridge.
I don't think I'm too much of a hippie-type person most of the time but this pregnancy has kind of brought that out in me a little. I find myself thinking about women back in the day who could do pregnancy and give birth without any of the modern things we find necessary today...and then I sometimes feel better about things like not taking my prenatal vitamins. I know how important they are, I've been politely scolded plenty of times about not taking them. Especially in the third trimester the doctors have been saying that it was okay in the beginning not to take them all the time, but that now I really need to get on it. I'm pretty sure it's because everyone is convinced that the nausea and vomiting goes away after the first trimester and they just assume I should not be struggling with it as much anymore. But, sadly that's just not true for me and my body, especially when it comes to prenatal vitamins (I've tried pills and gummies, both make me sick)...so against doctor's orders, I haven't been taking them pretty much at all this whole pregnancy. (It's funny because as I write this I feel like I'm going to be in trouble). I'm also supposed to be on iron supplements (which they also mentioned might make me sick) but when I started taking them I had one of the worst vertigo episodes ever and the vomiting hit a new record (sorry if that's tmi). I don't blame the supplements for the vertigo, but I do think it contributed greatly to the sick part of it.
So basically, I'm feeling like a hippie because I'm hopeful that my body will just naturally take care of all this pregnancy-making-a-human business without the use of these drugs. Women had been doing it for hundreds of years before this stuff came along right? I would never give up my Zofran, but I believe that me and baby will be just fine without the prenatals and iron supplements. I took prenatals a little more with Audrey's pregnancy, but not too much, and we both turned out okay!
The other hippie thing I'm feeling is that I want to feel some of the pain of labor before getting an epidural. I know some of my friends and family think that's nuts...or rather they would never want that themselves...but everyone is different and it is a little goal that I have for myself. To put it one sentence, I guess I'd say that I just want to have more of the birth-giving experience than I did with Audrey. I was induced, I got the epidural pretty quick because of fear of pain, not because of the actual pain itself. So I never dilated on my own, never was effaced, never felt a contraction, never felt my water break, never lost the mucus plug or anything. I don't think I would want to give birth completely naturally- we'll see how hippie I am next time around- but I at least know that I want to experience MORE of it than I have. Even if it's just a little more. I will most likely be getting induced still so hopefully I will able to stick to my goal and not be scared away by pitocin!
So, there are some of my thoughts right now. This time next week we will be so close!!!!
All I want to eat is sweets. Not candy really (which I think my family will be surprised about) but baked goods and pudding and chocolaty, peanut buttery, creamy things. I wish I could eat these things for all three meals. Thank goodness for Audrey being around so that I at least try to make us both eat things other than desserts. Although, we still have cheese danishes and greek yogurt for breakfast lately. With raspberries and strawberries sometimes...so that's good. We also eat a lot of other fruit. That's basically our diet till dinner- fruit, desserts, granola bars, and maybe some pasta for lunch if theres no dinner leftovers in the fridge.
I don't think I'm too much of a hippie-type person most of the time but this pregnancy has kind of brought that out in me a little. I find myself thinking about women back in the day who could do pregnancy and give birth without any of the modern things we find necessary today...and then I sometimes feel better about things like not taking my prenatal vitamins. I know how important they are, I've been politely scolded plenty of times about not taking them. Especially in the third trimester the doctors have been saying that it was okay in the beginning not to take them all the time, but that now I really need to get on it. I'm pretty sure it's because everyone is convinced that the nausea and vomiting goes away after the first trimester and they just assume I should not be struggling with it as much anymore. But, sadly that's just not true for me and my body, especially when it comes to prenatal vitamins (I've tried pills and gummies, both make me sick)...so against doctor's orders, I haven't been taking them pretty much at all this whole pregnancy. (It's funny because as I write this I feel like I'm going to be in trouble). I'm also supposed to be on iron supplements (which they also mentioned might make me sick) but when I started taking them I had one of the worst vertigo episodes ever and the vomiting hit a new record (sorry if that's tmi). I don't blame the supplements for the vertigo, but I do think it contributed greatly to the sick part of it.
So basically, I'm feeling like a hippie because I'm hopeful that my body will just naturally take care of all this pregnancy-making-a-human business without the use of these drugs. Women had been doing it for hundreds of years before this stuff came along right? I would never give up my Zofran, but I believe that me and baby will be just fine without the prenatals and iron supplements. I took prenatals a little more with Audrey's pregnancy, but not too much, and we both turned out okay!
The other hippie thing I'm feeling is that I want to feel some of the pain of labor before getting an epidural. I know some of my friends and family think that's nuts...or rather they would never want that themselves...but everyone is different and it is a little goal that I have for myself. To put it one sentence, I guess I'd say that I just want to have more of the birth-giving experience than I did with Audrey. I was induced, I got the epidural pretty quick because of fear of pain, not because of the actual pain itself. So I never dilated on my own, never was effaced, never felt a contraction, never felt my water break, never lost the mucus plug or anything. I don't think I would want to give birth completely naturally- we'll see how hippie I am next time around- but I at least know that I want to experience MORE of it than I have. Even if it's just a little more. I will most likely be getting induced still so hopefully I will able to stick to my goal and not be scared away by pitocin!
So, there are some of my thoughts right now. This time next week we will be so close!!!!
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| on our sunday walk down by provo river we found this awesome swing someone had made and tied to a tree. i've been doing a lot of imagining lately about the next few weeks! |
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| perfect weather for us |
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| my two favorites |
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